After searching n searching loosing hope i find this site . I don't really have much faith left ... being diagnosed with bipolar manic depression . i was shocked . Then it started making since why my life had been one problem after another . with multiple other problems associated w/t bipolar depression . it certainly has been a rough life . i get lost easily severly confused in making decisions . and frequent lapses of memory .plus since then i have been having serious problems with my feet it extremely difficult to walk i have been told it may be the onset of diabeties. but with no health insurance i don't know what is the problem .  i have serious credit card debt 30,000.00 plus unpaid hospital bills due 25,000.00 plus hospital bills .  I have been a house painter all my life..Well in the past year n a half jobs have been scarse with the economy the way it is nobody seems to need to paint there house so believe me it has been rough . now i dont expect much from this sight but any guidance for help would be seriously appreciated ... where to go ? what to do ? .any real help out there for someone like me ? your thought an considerations would be certainly appreciated . thank you .sincerly ,         patrick kelly at veppsinc@aol.com heres my e mail . It would be nice to hear from anyone with any concern . thoughts or suggestions ....and if there really is any one who care enough to give a helping hand can contact me . thanks once again .